A few months ago I was having a conversation with a friend about communism. During the conversation, I realized that I know almost nothing about communism. Why don’t I know anything about communism? I can barely provide a definition of the term! It is one of the most relevant political theories in history and today’s world.
This got me thinking. It got me thinking about all of the other important things I know nothing about. It got me thinking about all of the things that are so important to so many people but aren’t important to me so I know nothing about them. In fact, I know nothing about my own environment or the world in which I exist, which should be important to me, and it is, but not really.
After all this thinking, I decided that I need to study religion, political ideologies, ethnicity, anatomy, physics, language, geography, zoology, biology, cosmology, psychology, and every other ology. Everything that ends with ism. Every culture. Every country.
On top of that, I need to have a working knowledge of every art form. Music, film, animation, sculpting, painting, drawing, photography, metalwork, carpentry, dance, glassblowing… the list goes on.
The problem is that I still need to eat, sleep, shower, shave, tie my shoes, brush my teeth, exercise, work, make money, take vacations, go grocery shopping, socialize, get some sun, clean my dishes, read books, do homework, finish college, wash my car, spend time with my girlfriend, play guitar, finish this post… again… the list goes on. And if I don’t do those things?
If I don’t do some of those things, I’ll die. If don’t do some of those things, I’m a failure or a lazy bum or a bad person.
My point is that there just doesn’t seem to be enough time in the day to do what I need to do. There isn’t enough time in the night either, and I already devote every night to sleeping because if I don’t sleep, I’ll die, and I definitely don’t want to die because then I won’t have time to do anything at all.
I like to think that I’ll have the chance to study some of the things I want to study but that’s not guaranteed. I could fall asleep and wake up dead, or not wake up at all.
What’s the solution?
The solution is that there is no solution. People pretend to know a solution but they really don’t. People pretend to know all sorts of things like whether or not there is a god or how the universe started. How can anyone really know?
A christian might say, “Well… I read the Bible, prayed about it, and God confirmed to me that it is true.” But, guess what! A muslim person just read the Quran and felt like Allah confirmed its truth! Their experiences are equally valid… or invalid.
Anyways, none of this stuff actually matters because at tomorrow at 7am, my alarm will probably go off and I’ll probably go to work and come home and shower and eat and play video games and play guitar and finish a homework assignment and waste time doing things I don’t care to do. I’m just going to keep my mouth shut and do my thing. I need to turn my brain off. I need to do a lot of things.